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ok 1st thing 1st..
kinda was hopin that i get to read someone else stuffs here..watever they might write about..but oh well..as they say kabhi na..kabhi ha?(yeah loved that movie when i watched it ages ago hehe)but dun we think most of the time its always mostly na..and seldom ha?hehe..or is it cos we never do really realise the 'ha' things even if its right in our face?hehe

but yeah..let me carry on..there were times today i thot "hey i might be writing later if mood and time permits"..esp since durin those times..durin the morn..and the afternoon before comin home ..well wat can i say?the day always seems to start good with me..tho these days(its been a few days since it was 'officially' winter here)it been quite an effort to wake up..actually let me correct tht..been a mighty effort to get up and get out of bed. Wakin up is smthin that comes too easily..i mean wakin up at the wrong time hehe..u know before the alarm rings..there u go im awake!and i cant get back to sleep!..but just as the time nears when the alarm is goin to go off..wat do u know?im feeln so sleepy..or have already gone into dreamland!!yeah dreamland baby!hehe

cant remember switchn off the alarm today..u know..just one of those times..and it did take a while for me to get out of me 'daze' or shud i call it 'haze'?..before i realised wat the time was!!and yes!i had been starin at the watch for a quite a while!but didnt notice the time?cos the mind was smwhere..yeah!told u DREAMLAND baby!!hehe..and took another few moments to realise it was rainin outside..another hurdle..since i dunno where the umbrella is in the house..(oh im not the umbrella kinda person..dun ask me why!!i wish i could answer that!is it cos guys are supposed to be tuff?and not be scared to get wet?..i really detest carryn umbrellas!tho used to carry it in preparation for rainy days in my bag..yeah when i was young..really young hehe..duh!mum kinda forced me too!later alik baisa auda chai i just stopped and of cos mum just resorted to givin lecture hehe..no way could she force me hehe)

so in the cold..to walk to the bus stop(dyam me!can u belive it!still dun have a freakn drivin license!yes im tht lazy!!hehe..plus..i guess i kinda didnt grab the chance to get one when i could..when i had so much free time then..im a bad planner..i dun plan at all?..so yeah time is smthin that i just let it happen?to save meself feeln the frustrations of plans goin wrong?who knows..but did get a bike license then..and guess was happy scootin away on it..kinda miss those days..here its more advisable to get a freakn car!!the bikes are around the same price as cars!!or more!!!freakn hell!!can things get weirder!!!yes it can hoina?hehe..down here ppl who rides bikes are really biker freaks!!think i prefer a bike too..but then again im bias i guess..i mean i never drove so yeah..wat would i know about cars eh?..but yeah smtimes when i think of the past kinda am grateful im still here in one piece..u know we have times when we are bit more reckless than we shud be?the "I dont care" attitude?..there was that one incident(think it was the depression yrs..do hope smthin like that never comes..but future is not for us to see eh?..hopefully i 'learned' enuf from those yrs to handle meself a bit more..but yeah..thinkn is easy..i dun seem to have changed much..i mean in terms of tryn to help meself..ok maybe a bit hehe...

*brb fone* hehe

*BACK*hehe i really do talk to meself dun i?;oP hehe

ok the 'emotes' are comin out..i will try not to put those..thts the thing i dun really like about talkn with frens..they make u forget the mood ur in!!!the mood just vanishes away!!!arghhhhh!!!!:@ hehe

but yeah me being me..i always feel a bit better when i feel i finished smthin wich i started..u know a closure?dun we all want and long for that?..and guess wat?am back listenin to the songs i burned a while ago..cos i wanted to listen to them while i was typin..well didnt really plan to type..but..yeah..the mood is back!!well a bit diff..but still a bit similiar to the one that i had a while ago?..and that does kinda feel (dym wats that word!!!!shiiit!!its frustrating being a lethologic!!!and yeah i will forget even this 'lethologic' one day i tell u!!maybe i just did?but due to the magic of the the browsers these days which saves the caches..just type "l" in the dictionary and there u go..the word i had been checkn the past day hehe)

but yeah..kinda feels a bit comfortin in a weird way to know the mood tht was wit me a while ago..just didnt disappear..how can it just go away hoina?esp when the things(thats happenin in me life right now) that 'brought' the mood..are still around..and hasnt been resolved..dunno if they will be resolved..but yeah not gonna put more frustrations on meself..take it a day at a time!!WOOOHOOO!!in another words...it seems i cant be arsed and if i get more shiiiit!!arghhhh!!i deserve it?hehe...frustrations tho we dun like it ..kinda pushes us doesnt it?tho we do feel it kinda stops us?..oh well works both ways i guess...

so where was i?hehe..

if i fall back down...ur gonna help me back up again
if i fall back down..ur gonna be my fren..

it takes disaster to learn a lesson..
ur gonna make it thru the darkest hour..

some ppl betray and cause treason(tension?works too hehe)
we r gonna make everythin alright..

oops..dun mind me..was typin along with the song thats playn in the cd player hehe..own world ma chu :oD hehe..plus guess its a feel good song..

so where was i?hehe..yeah the mood has kinda disappeared again :oS hehe..lets wait for a not so happy song?hehe..

ok think this song will do..

so yeah skip everythin!!...i was talkn about today?..umbrella?..mero memory pani that bad chaina ni!just that it doesnt freakn work when its supposed to!!for the right things!!!!hehe

so ..yeah..walkn to the busstop..it was drizzlin..not that heavy..but then again in the morn..esp in the cold..urghhh...and hah!was wearin flip flops..kinda felt a bit numb..esp since the road/footpath was all wet..and if there were tilings..slippery!!and plus havin pants that is really long!!urghhh..kinda a nice feeln actually..u know to feel cold..and think of being in the house or just bein warm and dry..thats why im kinda really 'appreciating' being where i am right now?sittn on the couch..heater beside me ..to near me feet..so thats where im really feeln cold..as the most of the other parts of me body are kinda protected by clothes?...

*few hrs later*
hah!..cant belive i forgot about this again ;oP

anyways no idea wat i wrote up there!!yes another mood now!!:oS hehe..

might as well waste some dataspace!!someones gotta start?;oP hehe

*ahem*(close ur eyes and block ur eyes ;oP hehe)
correction...i need no direction..
let me go just one last time..
i spent my whole life searchn for direction..
let me go just one last time...

time to post a song playn in me mind eh ;o) hehe..

goodnight!:oD

*gone*

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