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1stly...wahahahahaa..someone commented on the prev one?wahahahahaa...
anyways..u scare me expressionles_expression!!!well i mean to say..u did scare me with wat u wrote :oD
how hard we try to 'run' away?can we from reality?:oD hehe..reality is quite a bitter cup of tea eh?which u have to drink like it or not?hehe..thts where the sugar helps ;o)..a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down..the medicine go down..the medicine go down!:oD..(oh kinda cant forget this song not cos its from mary poppins..it was from that movie wasnt it?..its more cos ..i think it was me principal's fav song..she could sing!and she did sing a lot durin those flag raising ceremonies in the morn..or in some sch events etc..and guess durin the music class..it was one of the songs which was taught a lot..and well..the great thing about being young..u dun really care if u sound good or not..cos u have no idea wat 'soundin good' means?and u be thre shoutin along in unision..even the timid ones does?well i like to believe so even the timid ones do take part..as long as we feel part of it?..where there aint no one sayn.."oh u can sing"...or "or oh..u sound horrible..stop ur shriekin"..blah blah blah hehe
anyways yeah kinda meandered again..but hey thts me eh?
seriously im lookin foward to someone freakn typin some blogs here!!!cos i really am not in the mood to check/find blogs to read..even blogs that belong to me frens(will catch up on those later..when mood will come!!it has to come!!!hehe)guess im longin for smthin new ..but since im a bit lazy..yeah it be so nice if i could get to see smthin new here...i mean..u know!!san bro made this to be used!!i dun wanna hog it!!katti hogney!!!hognu ko lai ta khannu paryo 1st!!if i dun 'eat'/read anythn!!..how to hogney bhanna!!!atti hoina!!!!!?:@ ;oP hehe
yeah yeah..kinda love talkn with meself hehe..if u dunno wat tht is..try it ;o)..tho i dunno if it will work for u?everyones diff i guess..wat does it for me..might not with another one(thats smthin i think i learnt in the last few yrs of me life ;o)..yeah feels good to realise/think im still learnin ..and got the ability to learn?hehe..tho not everything :oD...ke garney budeskaal lagyo..as they say..u cant teach old dog new tricks?i mean in sayns there def is some truth to it..hoina?)
so where was i?wahahahah ;oP
time 2.09pm...
think i reached home around 1-ish..but yeah talk about mood!!!was it the weather?yes its gloomy now!!(it has been gloomy or rainin for a week or so now!!)and to think in the morn ..the sun was shinin..and it just seemed like it be a warm nice sunny day..esp in this cold winter?(i mean winter here aint as cold as some summer in the countries..but im talkn about winter being cold!as compared to the summer in this country!!not another freakn country!!let me whine in peace will u!:@ ;oP hehe)...
some say weather does get into u?guess some truth in there too?..but in the end...cant run away from reality?..dyam i was feeln so tired!!kinda even dozed off in the bus(hah!to think i nearly missed the bus..cos i was daydreamin wahahahaa...lucky for me i woke up from me daydream and the bus was a bit late too..nabha..waitin another 30mins added to the already 20mins i waited..plus with the tiredness and hunger..and the gloomy weather!hah!just sounds like a frustrating scenario?ok i better not type more about it :o| hehe)
but anyways yap had to come home..cos duh!being lazy(tho i cant get rid of the feeln inside that i do think it was an INGENIOUS idea of mine!!and not being lazy!!wahahahaha)didnt pack the bag yesterday night..(can u blame a person for being lazy to pack the bag..for football trainin..when the person had just had a heavy dinner..really heavy!sagarmatha jasto dhekney bhaat in the plate wahahahaha..and of cos in the cold night..urghh cold does make one lazier?..)so yeah i didnt pack..cos in some ways i thot it was better to come back home..and then head off for the trainin..(dyam i need the excercise!!tho it wont be much a serious kinda run out :oS..its not a professional team duh!!;oP hehe)partly cos...if i had left home ready and packed..i wouldnt have come back here..and would have tried to find smthin to do..before goin to trainin..most prob while away time..goin to the city?some bookstore?feels good to be around books..doesnt it?when those books are for recreational and not for exams!!!!duh!;oP hehe)
ok ok where was i?:oS
oh the INGENIOUS idea!!i didnt pack cos i wanted to get into a position where i had to come back home!!!the thot of being at home..the solace of the four walls..the comfy couch(too attached to it i tell u!!;oP hehe)..the warthm in the house..thanks to the heater!!!hehe..and of cos..peace!cos it aint crowded ;o)..right now all i know is there is someone in the house..upstairs..but i dunno which housemate of mine is that wahahahaa....so oblivious?duh!give peace!!get peace!!plus i do want peace right now :oD hehe..but im sure whoever the housemate is..he knows whos the one typin right now..in the livin room wahahahaa...urghh :oS hehe)
anyways just as i kinda had a feeln..which kinda is proven right :oS..there goes the bloody mood!!that lethargic mood!!that no energy to do anythin!!that mood to just sit down..be alone?..u know..arghhh!!goyo reflections!!and seriously speakn!!i was tryn me best to not type!!!i freakn hate being hyper!!i mean hate is too strong a word hehe..but u know wat i mean!!i freakn feel weird 'heheing' and findn even shit funny!!errr funny aint the right word for it..u know!feeln positive for nothn!!!!!!!!freakn smilin for nothn!!!!!freakn grinnin for nothn!!!!sacchi i try to put meself in another persons shoes and try to imagine seeing someone daar lagdo..walkn or sittn there by himself/herself and smilin/grinnin..kasto scary hoina?:o| well duh!wat scary!!when i see that!!i actually start grinnin too!!!arghhhh!!!sacchi!!pls pray for me!!!:o( hehe
guess wat?i just found out just now..(due to the magic of trivia?hehe)..i have the problem of lethologica!!!woohoooo!!at least i found out smthing today!!hehe..1st time im puttn the right word when i wanted to ;o) hehe..
la la enuf!!..i mean i do realise right now..i just wanna type and type away..takin the easy way out aint i?to forget reality?thats wat i like to believe :oD hehe..cos duh!i was feeln shit an hr ago!!so where did the shit go bhaney!!!cos i practically havent done anythin to get rid of the shit..but type some shit bhakwash here!!!!!:oS hehe..yap the shit is pilin up!!but where bhaney!!!ma pani dekhum all those shits that pilin on me!!so that i can see its so huge!!that i realise i better do smthin about it!!cos its HUGE!!(tho def less than tonnes of ppl out there :oS..duh!diff ppl have diff strength!!ur stronger!;o)..and maybe im stronger than some of u?urghh :oS hehe)...
sacchi ho!!!somoene better not comment on this!!i really wanna come back later and del it ;o)..cos i be thinkn later..wtf did i type again bhaney!:o| hehe..and most prob tell meself.."alik socheyra type gaar kukkur!!!gadda!!dimak chaina?" and most prob i reply to meself.."chaina :oS..seems like i dun have it..if not would i be typin all those stuffs?:oS" hehe...
la la....time to stop!better go eat!had forgotten im hungry wahahaha..sacchi this typin(talkin to oneself) is addictive bhaney!!!makes u forget reality!arghhh!!!and yeah most prob i do hope i learn to stop pretendin soon!!hehe..esto hyper teytikai hunda ..of cos its def me(subconciously?cos i dun think i try hard to feel like this :oS hehe)pretendin hoina?cos duh!!im in shit i tell u!!!:o| hehe..yeah who aint?hehe..
where has all the shit gone...ohh ohhh(typin along to that tune.."where has all the cowboys gone" wahhahaa..can only remember that part of the song :oS hehe)
reality..reality!aint it shit?so star hoggin!!here!!!hehee..i dun wanna hogney alone!!:@ hehe
dyam!!mero control ta bhakwash!!!bharai pheri aucha esto raag huney feelns and then i be telln meself..."see i told u ..control keta..control!!!dhekis teytikai dherai khusi bhoyeko natija!?" hehe..if only everythin could be explained?:o)..life would just be a lot better for the humans hoina?cos they are freakn curious!!jay ma pani kina answer chayo!!!kina bhaney!!!!!:@ ;oP hehe
dyam!i think im not goin for trainin!!hyaaa!!the clouds really look like its gonna open up any moment!!!...i need to get out of this house!!why?cos i feel like sittin here and think think think!!which i shud stop meself from doin?hehe..duh!go against the flow ni ;o)..test oneself?;oP hehe..but yeah when u realise u cant go against it?just go on with the flow hoina ;o)..stubborness leads to?drownin?wahahaha..well if ur swimmin against the currents..if u tire doin that..and later no energy to keep urself afloat?drown hoina?..unles someone comes and saves u?hehe...dhat testo hope ta..will drown with u?wahahahaha ;oP hehe..
ok ok now feeln more sane..i dun feel like submittin this wahahahaa....bhakwash ta bhakwash..wastin me own time is one thing..wastin another person time..and esp database space..which cost money!!!hehe..duh!!!i know i shud let them decide for themselves!!but arent we all nice?we wanna make it EASIER?;oP hehe...
wat was that hindi dialogue!!hehe..na baal bajey?smthin like that...if there wasnt gun..bullets will be meaninless?u cant shoot those bullets?just throw at each other wahahahaa (dun mind me 'wahahain':oS imimaginin the scence of ppl throwin bullets at each other right now..wahahaha..not cos i want to!it just came into me mind!!!intrusion!!!!mind intrusion!!!!:@ yeah right ;oP hehe)
ooops..had forgotten about this window wahahaha..wat did i type anyways?:o| hehe
anyways mood sood ta gone..tht gloomy mood..football pani gone(am gonna quit that one day anyways :oD..)..weather not so gloomy..shit!and i dared to assume it will pour just cos some rain drops were fallin?...
anyways..yeah..watever will be will be?hehe..hope i do grow up soon?:oD..more than now?:oD...woohoooooo!!:oD..i feel hope i will ;o)..sooner than later :oD..can we run away from reality?duh!;oP hehe..
sacchi katti bhakwash leknu sakeyko!!:o|
good day!:oD ..hopefully ur havin a better one than me :oD..if not..dun worry..we have shit days too ..u aint alone?;o) hehe..hopefully urs aint shit as one can think of?:oS...
dyam im hungry!:oD
www.hungersite.com anyone?;oP hehe..i just remember that site..feels good when i remember it and click on it hehe..if not urghh dun we hate for just bein too busy that we feel we are forgettn smthin there that we wanna do?or would like to do?:oS hehe..ok enuf bhakwash!hehe..
come tiredness come!!i know ur waitn ..cheers for waitn ;o) ..hope i didnt make u wait long re kya ;oP hehe..
(ps..to those frens who knows me..yeah read me nick!!sharrap!!and dun ask me!!yes u know me!!!its me!!!and dun be too scared!!a bit is ok?;oP hehe..i dun bite!!i will try not too!wahahaha ;oP hehe)
*gone*
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