Do you know how it feels,
to have loved someone more than yourself,
to have lived for HIM and HIS and not for yourself,
to have been there for him forever,
to have lost HIM in the month of December?
Do you know how it feels,
to have pretended to be free,
when there's an exam in an hour or three?
To have loved to wake up after an hours' z,
just to talk to him and give him company?
Do you know how it feels,
to have hurt when he ached,
to have loved when he faked,
to have shared his pain as yours,
to be holding on to NOTHING, as if it cures?
Do you know how it feels,
to be a lonestar, whose light means nix to the one it shines for?
To be on a marooned boat, waiting on him to be back with the oar?
To be living in utopia, that instantaneously dies,
to be an orchid, too precious for others, but not pretty enough in his eyes?
Do you know how it feels,
to have scorned the best of friends,
to be living alone in a world so strange!
To wake up during midnight to realize he's gone,
to be sulking sole, when he has moved on?
Do you know how it feels,
to be haunted by memories in your sleep,
to be mocked by your dream and your own belief?
To have sowed one seed, to be reaped by someone else,
to stare and stand helpless, when your own train derails?
Do you know how it feels,
when there's someone running constantly in your head,
when all you see is 'him', you are blindfolded,
when all he has is sympathy, and not love,
when all you want, is a lill amour from the above?
Do you know how it feels,
to have been stabbed by your own,
to be harassed by the silence of your phone?
To forget what you just did, to forget you did not eat;
to see 'Goodbye' emails, even in your dream,
do you know how it feels, to have lost not just love, but everything??
